Happy 3 month Heavenly Birthday sweet boy! I'm sorry it' been a while again since I've written to you. Last week was Thanksgiving and we just got back today from Nana & Bumpa's house. Don't worry though, we still celebrated your very special day today. Your daddy went and bought you another balloon and we were actually able to go visit you to send it this month! It was a beautiful day perfect for a balloon release. :) We took pictures again so I can scrapbook them.
Well little one there's not much else to report today. I hope you get some good rest tonight and that you had lots of fun with your friends today. I love you!
Monday, November 30, 2009
November 23, 2009
Hey baby! I love you! Today was a sad day for your mommy. No real reason and no real trigger, I just missed my little boy. I did get to go see you though and that always helps a little bit. I realize more every day just how much I miss you and how much you blessed my life by just your being you. Life is such a precious gift and the gift of carrying you is one I will always treasure. I still can't believe you are gone. I miss feeling you move. I wish I would have held you longer than I did. I wish I would have never had to let you go. I love you Carter. Sweet dreams little one!
November 22, 2009
Hi! Sorry it's been so long since I have written to you. I have thought about you constantly. This week was an ok week. I saw some geese flying the other day and it made me think of you. I guess that will be our thing! Not much has gone on since we last talked. Daddy and I worked, your sister went to school, we took your pets to the vet for their check-ups. Crater has to go in tomorrow for x-rays. The doctor thinks he might have lower back problems. :( The good news is he thinks we'll be able to treat it. I'm worried about him but trust the vet to take good care of your oldest furry sibling. He's such a good boy. Your daddy took a nap tonight so I sat downstairs and Crater laid on my lap all evening. He's such a sweet cat.
This week is Thanksgiving. We are headed up to South Dakota to see Nana & Bumpa. Your daddy is excited to go on a trip and I'm sure your sister will be happy to see them. I on the other hand would rather stay home so I could visit you. It makes me sad to think about leaving you on our first major holiday without you here to hold. :(
I bought your daddy's big present for Christmas this weekend. I think he'll really like it since he asked specifically for it! I am going to surprise him with some other stuff too though.
I can't believe it's almost been three months since you went home. The time has both flown by and crawled. I can't believe it still when I think about you being truly gone from this earth. I wish every second of every day that I could hold you again and tell you to your face how much I love you. I just can't believe you are gone.
Well little one, I should get to sleep. I sleep every night with the bear they gave us at the hospital when we had you. It helps me to sleep better. I love you! Sweet dreams little one!
This week is Thanksgiving. We are headed up to South Dakota to see Nana & Bumpa. Your daddy is excited to go on a trip and I'm sure your sister will be happy to see them. I on the other hand would rather stay home so I could visit you. It makes me sad to think about leaving you on our first major holiday without you here to hold. :(
I bought your daddy's big present for Christmas this weekend. I think he'll really like it since he asked specifically for it! I am going to surprise him with some other stuff too though.
I can't believe it's almost been three months since you went home. The time has both flown by and crawled. I can't believe it still when I think about you being truly gone from this earth. I wish every second of every day that I could hold you again and tell you to your face how much I love you. I just can't believe you are gone.
Well little one, I should get to sleep. I sleep every night with the bear they gave us at the hospital when we had you. It helps me to sleep better. I love you! Sweet dreams little one!
November 15, 2009
Hello there little one! Well, it's Sunday and tomorrow I head back to work for the week. It sure is nice to have weekends though. Especially weekends where we got to go to two birthday parties. Your sister was so happy because she got to eat cake twice. :)
I got our Christmas decorations out today. It's a couple of weeks earlier than I normally get everything out and I'm not totally sure why I did, but most everything is up and it looks really nice. I wish you were here in my arms so I could see what you think about the lights on the tree. And I wish I could take your foot and make a footprint on our tree skirt. But instead, I painted an angel above your name and that is what I'll continue to do every year for you, my sweet little boy. I miss you so much. Your daddy misses you terribly too. He was pretty sad today. He said he was sad about you. It breaks my heart. I would give anything to have you back. I love you, Carter!
I got our Christmas decorations out today. It's a couple of weeks earlier than I normally get everything out and I'm not totally sure why I did, but most everything is up and it looks really nice. I wish you were here in my arms so I could see what you think about the lights on the tree. And I wish I could take your foot and make a footprint on our tree skirt. But instead, I painted an angel above your name and that is what I'll continue to do every year for you, my sweet little boy. I miss you so much. Your daddy misses you terribly too. He was pretty sad today. He said he was sad about you. It breaks my heart. I would give anything to have you back. I love you, Carter!
November 14, 2009
Good evening to my favorite boy in the world! Well, it's been a few days since I last wrote to you but I've been thinking about you constantly. I went to visit you today and your new pinwheel was there. It is metal and wonderful! Dan ordered it for you and it is perfect. It was completely still out there today. I was amazed. Today is your friend Josh's 2 month birthday. I bet you two are up there having a great time. I am so glad you are surrounded by little ones up there and I am grateful that I have "met" so many great mommies because of you! You continue to do great things Carter! Even if you spirit is gone from this earth, you live on in so many peoples' hearts. I am so proud of you! I love you!
November 11, 2009
Hey you! Well I had a nice day at home with your sister today. She sure is sweet and I am sure you would have been just as sweet as she is. Every time we go visit you she always tells you goodbye as we drive away. She loves you too buddy! I have never seen as many people at the cemetery as we saw today. There were lots of people out there visiting for Veteran's Day. I got a call from baby Tex's mommy again today. I completely forgot that his two month heavenly birthday was this week. You've got lots of friends up there don't you little guy?
I miss you so much. I was looking at your daddy's ears before he went to work tonight and couldn't help but smile. You had your daddy's ears you know!
Tomorrow is Thursday. I wish with all of my heart I could have taught you what "Thursday" is. There are so many things I wish I could have taught you.
Dr. Storey called me tonight. He's such a wonderful person. We've been having those problems getting your stillbirth certificate and he's been helping us out. So tonight he called me to see if things were finally moving along. It was so nice to hear his voice and to know how much he cares about us...how much he cares about you!
I miss you so much. I was looking at your daddy's ears before he went to work tonight and couldn't help but smile. You had your daddy's ears you know!
Tomorrow is Thursday. I wish with all of my heart I could have taught you what "Thursday" is. There are so many things I wish I could have taught you.
Dr. Storey called me tonight. He's such a wonderful person. We've been having those problems getting your stillbirth certificate and he's been helping us out. So tonight he called me to see if things were finally moving along. It was so nice to hear his voice and to know how much he cares about us...how much he cares about you!
November 10, 2009
Hey there little boy!
I love you and hope you are having fun up there today. Today is a couple of your friends' 9 month heavenly birthday so I would imagine there is some celebrating going on. Jayden and Layla were both born still on February 10, 2009. I can't even imagine what life will be like after you've been gone for that long. It will be May of 2010. I guess there is no sense in trying to imagine because I can't.
I am planning on going out to visit you again tomorrow. It's been a few days and I just can't wait to see you again. I think first of all I'm going to have to bring your sister to the doctor though. She isn't feeling well so I'd better get her checked out! Tomorrow is also Veteran's Day. It is a very special day that we take off from work to celebrate the things people in the armed services have done for us. There are lots of flags out at the cemetery all around you to honor those people who have served.
Today was a blah day. I wasn't up and I wasn't down. I just kind of existed. That's ok though. I really try to focus my energy every day on the things that are truly important in my life and not so much on the things that don't matter in the greater scheme of things.
I love you with all of my heart Carter Alan. Sweet dreams my love. Mommy loves you!
I love you and hope you are having fun up there today. Today is a couple of your friends' 9 month heavenly birthday so I would imagine there is some celebrating going on. Jayden and Layla were both born still on February 10, 2009. I can't even imagine what life will be like after you've been gone for that long. It will be May of 2010. I guess there is no sense in trying to imagine because I can't.
I am planning on going out to visit you again tomorrow. It's been a few days and I just can't wait to see you again. I think first of all I'm going to have to bring your sister to the doctor though. She isn't feeling well so I'd better get her checked out! Tomorrow is also Veteran's Day. It is a very special day that we take off from work to celebrate the things people in the armed services have done for us. There are lots of flags out at the cemetery all around you to honor those people who have served.
Today was a blah day. I wasn't up and I wasn't down. I just kind of existed. That's ok though. I really try to focus my energy every day on the things that are truly important in my life and not so much on the things that don't matter in the greater scheme of things.
I love you with all of my heart Carter Alan. Sweet dreams my love. Mommy loves you!
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