Dragging

Good morning Carter. I love you!

Well little guy, I had another non-stress test on your sister yesterday and I am happy to report that she is doing just as good as she should be. And I didn't even cry a single tear at yesterday's appointment. Sounds like I'm making strides right?!?! =- ) I get to go in for another one on the 19th and I am looking quite forward to it. Both times I have gone in, my doctor is as wonderful as he always is. I love that guy! He's doing everything he can to make the "home stretch" comfortable for me in every way possible.

Your sister is still a mover and a shaker and that makes me so very happy. And that big sister of yours, well she is just the sweetest thing ever. Even if she is two and with being two come all of the two year old trials. She is finding herself in the midst of it all and it is (mostly) fun to watch! Your daddy has been super busy with work stuff lately and although I can't blame him for my dragging...I am completely pooped out and feel over-worked. It doesn't help either that my love language is pretty much a dead tie between acts of service and quality time. So my "love tank" is feeling pretty empty lately too. We are headed camping this weekend and although I am looking forward to some time to relax while camping, I am worried about your kitty-cat, Crater. He's going to miss a full day of his medicine and I hope it doesn't come back to bite me in the rear end.

So I am dragging in about every way possible lately. I am dragging physically with being pregnant, hot, tired and out of shape. I am dragging emotionally because of you sister trying limits and your daddy being so busy and not around much. I am dragging mentally I think mainly because I am just so physically tired I can't even begin to "think" clearly. And I think I am probably even dragging a little spiritually. Not for any particular reason. And I don't feel anything bad in my spiritual walk right now. I'm just tired and not feeling the fire burning under my feet.

I guess dragging isn't a bad thing though huh? At least I noticed it and can try to do what is possible to make the dragging not feel so "drag-ish".

I did go see you a couple days ago though and that always makes the hole in my heart feel a little smaller. I love visiting you and seeing the beautiful place where you are. I know I've said it before, but it really does seem like a place that a little boy would just love with all of the animals out there, the entire place looks just like one giant lawn, there are trees to climb and you have a nearly perfect view of the sky to watch the airplanes! I love your spot. I love it a lot!

Well baby boy, I guess I should get going. Even though I'm pooped, there are things I should probably be doing here at work. I will talk to you again soon. I love you!