November 4, 2009

Well hello there little boy.

It's been a while since I have written to you and for that I am sorry! Life has gotten away from me. They did install your headstone on November 2nd and it looks really nice. I don't think I could be happier with it. Since we last talked, your two month birthday also passed. It was really snowy outside. We had planned to go to the cemetery to let a balloon go for you but there was too much snow. We were afraid we wouldn't be able to get there or we would get stuck. So we let your balloon go from home. It was nice. We took pictures so we could put them in the scrapbook.

Other than that we haven't really done much. I guess we did go to another concert. It was nice. We watched Kimber Rising, Building 429 and Todd Agnew. They are all really good bands. I was glad we went. It was hard though. Kimber Rising played Amazing Love which we had at your funeral and Building 429 sang a song called Always. In the song they talk about a mommy whose little boy would be 3. I cried and cried. After the concert, your daddy and I went to see you.

There are so many days that I just can't believe you are gone. Today is one of those days. I don't really know what triggered it but I do know that I was thinking some about Thanksgiving and Christmas and that didn't help the situation any. Then after work I went to see you and your pinwheel had broken and your toy car had blown away. It made me so sad. I did find your car and our friend Dan brought you a new pinwheel already tonight. We are very blessed to have such wonderful people in our lives that care so very much about all of us, you included!

Well little boy, I should go spend some time playing with your sister before bedtime. I can't believe she's going to be 2 in just over a month. She has gotten so big so fast just like you would have no doubt! I love you with all that I am Carter and miss you every single second of every day!

I love you!